Why trying to forgive is like yelling at a stone to make it become a tree.

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Photo: CK

Forgiveness cannot happen within hierarchy. All sides need to be whole and as they are. To as-they-are-ify is impossible, so, instead, wait patiently. Let go of all things for they are not of use and never were. See what happens by letting all be what is. The moment shall after a while, come into a new unexpected focus. The most important thing to consider: why do you wish to forgive? Wanting to forgive someone implies a judgement. Who are we to judge the unknowable? To play leap frog via humanly-established bylaws of acceptable thought and emotional trajectory is a trap. Forgiveness is irrational and can enter in like a knife through the curtain, cutting off a layer of skin and revealing the hidden command we once gave ourselves as the sole, best option we had at the time, for we are all ever doing our best. The command is no more of use, with its ink instead coating our bloodstream, our lifestream. Purity is impossible if we keep renewing the messages we do not know we carry, and the reality is we cannot see that we carry messages inside our skin, nor do we see their renewal. But we FEEL everything. And things oddly cyclical keep happening. Disparate challenges take on a familiarity. This is misleading. The comfortable and familiar makes us feel that we know what things are, why they are, yet nothing can be further from the truth, especially when it comes to the unresolved, and that which is not yet forgiven.

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Photo: CK

You cannot forgive someone, for the you that you were has to be extinguished, for a new you to witness what it is like to be extinguished, and remember that we are all the perceiving of extinguishable fire. Which candle in your chandelier of hands is burning its final inch? It eventually gets to this point. Which thought, concept or instruction is living its life past a functional illumination of darkness, and instead having the flame start to lick at your fingertips? You could bear the wax dripping, but flames are another story. Do you drop the candle? You may burn your whole house down! You may cast the entire world into flames! So much drama...

You are in a gentle flowing pool of water. No flame will harm another. You can ever let go of your ten arms, your army of arms and let all blazes cease. The cost is darkness and the slight smell of smoke, and the sizzling out of wicks will be the last sound you hear other than the lapping of water against your frame. You no longer need arms and no longer need candles. You no longer need you. Water gently meets water in darkness. Eventually fear eases and you realize that sound requires a perceiver and hearing requires the perceived. One cannot be without the other. You alone cannot forgive until you can perceive forgiveness. Listen to the water for this. Do not even be distracted by the reflections that come with sunrise. Listen to the water. Nothing more.

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Photo: CK